disenchant

you told me i can never tell anymore if you're mad or sad..
well sad enough..actually i could dear..
pretending im not.
when all the while in fact..
im just too exhausted to always be the one making you happy at the slightest uncertainties.
sometimes you just have to learn to understand your own feelings..
before putting the hopes on me to make it all better.
i know you see me as a pillar of comfort.
im probably the one who you shares your joys and pains.
the one that kiss you the last goodnight
and the first to wish you good morning..
but making you feel insecure is the last of my intentions.
probably..
and you're feeling bitter for not treating you like how im supposed to..
that i see you the same way as i see all my other "little" friends.
well sad enough..thats not true either.
maybe..
still..you can blame me for the person i have become now..
blame it on the possesions i have..
blame me for the past wrong doings that has haunt me now..
blame it on the guilt which i can never get another chance to forgive myself
blame all that..
but dont blame it on this heart that has always been the same.
please dont.

SELAMAT HARI RAYE!!!!


me and my fav cousin with the loving grandparents of ours.
love them!



family picture perfect!

Say Goodbye

Say Goodbye (unplugged) - kHai & Yanty

[kHai]
verse:
i'm just scared to know the ending
of the stories that u wrote
i'm living off these memories
so turn away and let me go

build up:
im bleeding,
im screaming,
i took a dive right in.
i wont talk, i wont cry~ out

pre-chorus:
i've been wondering why
if its only me
have you always been inside
i'm waiting to breathe

chorus:
i no longer feel myself
i'm all i need
you're a vision in my head
this time i mean it
nevermind the times i've seen it
i find it hard to stay
with the words i say

....say goodbye....
....say goodbye....

[Yanty]
verse2:
Did you read all of the chapters
Description of my thoughts
They stated the reasons of betrayal
The cause were mostly you inside

build up:
I'm running
I'm crying
I seeked the help of an angel
But I've wronged, I trust too much

Pre-Chorus:
You've been wondering why
It is only you
Did you ever think once
That I'm a victim too

Chorus:

interlude:
[kHai]
like a fool im fed
with lies behind my back
sins so unforgivable
worth of my denial

[Yanty]
the answer to my ending
the story of us im closing
again you leaving me~

Chorus(2x)

heart-felt

sometimes in life..
we can't always get the things we want..
no matter how simple it looks.
no matter how complicated it would be..
and no matter how hard we try..
there are certain dreams or desire that can't be fulfilled..
regardless of countless efforts and indefinite sacrifices we make...
once too many times..life is..
unfair...

its a rare opportunity of two similar beings brought under as one.
probably god himself has his glitch..
laying a crosspath of two mortals alike with only a thin layer of undoubtness surrounds.
but is vastly blessed with a strong chemistry of love, hate and true self-emotions

the fact that they share almost the same common interests.
happiness is endless..
where coincidentals are too good to be true..
and a day spent in reality is another heaven-like special that surpasses their wildest fantasies..
yes they may seem perfect for each other..
and maybe just destined to be together..

still..life..
to a certain extend..
is unfair..
its up to us to actually learn from the mistakes and lessons that it has befall us..
i shall be thankful and grateful instead..
a new beginning will it be..
a wonderous ending it shall have..
i'll learned..
i'll comprehend..
i'll embraced..

Fly time Fly..!!

time flies when you're having fun...
thats how it goes..
but once too many occasions on how we realised its not all about us..
i guess seeing people change is enough to take us through times..
i know i did..
after all..people have their own bittersweet journey..
its not JUST the fun moments that you actually realised you've come a long way..
at the end of the day..
times don't fly..logically...
but its pretty intriguing to look back and smile at how you "fly" your way through time..
hehe..
as far as im concerned..
mine's not enriched as it could be..
and if there's one thing that can make me fullfilled..
i guess its you..
=)

Diagnostics Radiology

my times kinda routine nowadays..
apart from the usual rap-shit-stop-it and chill out with friends during weekends..
its usually climbing up high..
catching little eggs..
at some point get frustrated with the stinking smell of bird's poo...
hehe..
and of course..
entertaining those mental people at IMH..
like ive mentioned..
the weirdest people are the ones that make you differentiate the sensible logical and those scary abnormal..

and....since its that time of year..
these beady eyes of mine have to be a little weet discipline..
but the hot sexy interns did not help at all..
dont they just good look in nursing suits..?
hehe

and didnt i tell you before..
i lurve diagnostics radiology!! keke
although i have no idea what the freak it means.
if im not in chemical business..
i'll probably have a career on that DR
dont ask why.
i just love it..hehe