this is a sign of boredom
from boredom comes stupidity...
from stupidity comes insanity...
insanity becomes energetic...
energetic will leave me breathless..
breathlessness would end up me bumming around..
bumming will lead to boredom...
at least i think thats whats happening to me rite now..
hah.

i longed for the day that everything would be okay.
where i dun have to worry about anything animore.
where i dun have to take sleeping pills just to fall asleep.
where i could just close my eyes and smile through my dreams.
knowing i've made a choice im not going to regrette ever.
i wanna have that feeling ive lost all these years.
and yes.
yes of coz i will fight to defend a girl
but i wont fight merely to get a girl's love which everyguys after.
i wont.

fate is fate.

whats not meant to be will never meant to be*

*a good friend once told me.
if love can be forced by winning over,
then i dun think thats true love.
love is special thing that flows through both hearts.
you dun have to ask yourselves why.
it does hurts when i cant have what ive always wanted.
i cant taste what its like to have this fulfilled.
still many frens ask me why?
i dunnoe cos im still searching that something special.
im gonna have to put my mind to rest now.
if not im gonna get alot2 pimples on my face.
hah.
whats got to do with pimples??
i dunnoe...just my stupid theory.
rest well my humble frenz.
nitez.

starting from the bit and pieces has always been hard

some ppl last for few days days.others can last for years.

sometimes scars left by one may only be healed

by the one who inflicted it.

i cant tell if the road is bumpy ahead

i cant even tell if im on the right road

i dont even know if i already made my first step

but the signs are there to guide me

and guide me well they will.

so please...

give me a sign.

and i'll be on my way.........

weeeeeeeeyipppeeeeee......

hah.

im kLazeee..

can dreams become reality??

or is it staged-en-actment.

cos the probability is like over a thousands even millions.

and my face wasnt even on the main frame.

hah.

i smell something fishy.

i think somethings not right here.

in pure lame term.....

i just dont believe you.

mabi its the mistery behind every coincidental act some of us

are willing to go through. hey cant blame them.

hmmm.

i got no freaking idea what am i talking about.

and neither do you.

this is a pure shitty senseless entry.

but it stays this way mind you.

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hey i learned a new werd!!

"Wols"!

W.O.L.S.

isnt it nice. a princess actually taught me.

i bet some of u guys are too slow to know what it means.

hah.

caught ya.

why the hell is that guy going out with THAT gerl?!!

oh my god..

i cant even stand to look at her face.

let alone going out on a date??!!!

yucks...eggelllrrgghh..haha...

soooooowwwwiiiieeeeeee.....

love 'IS' really really soooo blind i guess..

at the same..

im just terrificly happy for you guys...

i really do! See-Ryyyy-earsSs!

HaH.

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life is starting to get so predictable. so freaking straight-foward.

so unstereotyped.

sometimes i just feel like questioning our fate. our destiny. the future.

the unforseen situations we're about to go through.

or the small little things tt are insignificant to us right now;

but it might just be the only things

we are left to hold on to in the future.

scary shiit.

or just love.

haiz...

come to think of it..

im really beginning to miss someone...

=...(

yahz yahz go ahead laugh all you want

im just another sick pathetic bastard.

leave me. im not okay.

im supposed to be in sch now..but im not!

hah.

cos ive got an MC for today.

some rashes thingy happen and i dunnoe what the hell causes it.

but im happy happy.

this is the first time ive got an MC in my poly life...

wait a minute!

in fact this is also the very first time that

im absent from poly for a valid reason!

if not, im just pure lazy to go.

hah.

sounds stupid. VveerRyy.

i think i need a revamp on my blog

i think mabi someone had mistaken me for someone..

cant blame that someone.

cos this blog aint got no profile, no nothing.

so just add a little thingy things of mine.

and some links.

it should appear on click each of the the"im" "not" "okay"

erghhh.

some ppl just waste of my time.

but its okay though.

nitez my mortals.

2004...

a pretty nice number.

yah? so..?? hah.

then usher in 2005.

pretty much the same.

its all about the new resolutions.

i dont want any.

i have everything i wanted to have.

ive done pretty much everything i intended to do.

i only have one wish.

a wish tt someday will come true.

=)

hopefully larrr...

niwae.

happy new year.