disenchant

you told me i can never tell anymore if you're mad or sad..
well sad enough..actually i could dear..
pretending im not.
when all the while in fact..
im just too exhausted to always be the one making you happy at the slightest uncertainties.
sometimes you just have to learn to understand your own feelings..
before putting the hopes on me to make it all better.
i know you see me as a pillar of comfort.
im probably the one who you shares your joys and pains.
the one that kiss you the last goodnight
and the first to wish you good morning..
but making you feel insecure is the last of my intentions.
probably..
and you're feeling bitter for not treating you like how im supposed to..
that i see you the same way as i see all my other "little" friends.
well sad enough..thats not true either.
maybe..
still..you can blame me for the person i have become now..
blame it on the possesions i have..
blame me for the past wrong doings that has haunt me now..
blame it on the guilt which i can never get another chance to forgive myself
blame all that..
but dont blame it on this heart that has always been the same.
please dont.