Now..give me hope..

Discontented.
I am definitely not in any state of euphoria now.
Disregard.
I certainly had no consideration for things I said which Ive said.
Sick.
It just has to happen at the most terrible of times.

Sometimes I find myself in a position making irrational decisions without prior thought.
It sure does happen to all of us before I understand.
But as of lately, things have gone wrong
Just occurring over once too many I guess.
The aftermath really does hurts.
As of now, I cant help myself feeling that sulky sorrow.

And yes I do.
I do fall sick often.
I do know when this happens; I tend to make hasty acts.
And I do know that I will try its best not to affect the people around me.
But yet again, I do realize that its not a reason for the way I have been now.

I cant be mindful of the things I do.
I cant make a wise stance.
And I cant help trying to be Mr. Right and not jeopardize the feelings of others.
Cause at the end of the day, I impulsively hurt the one closest to me.

Now you lost all faith
I have lost confidence.
Are you still willing to forgive me?

give me hope...