i have a fetish for listening to sappy love songs lately..
no idea why...but it seems to soothes the mind when im in deep thoughts contemplating in my own free will dream land..
questions like "what if" and "what will" came to the picture...
its seems almost as if im still not satisfied with everything i had now..haha..
but im not changing anything nope not at all..
what goes on in the mind is not always what im desiring to be..
its just a second reality dream from a prelude ride to conclusion of a story...my life story
as we all know...life is full of choices...
and this is idea of a story of "what ifs" and "what will" if i happen to make choices blessed by my blissful ignorance instead of my heart..hmmm..
im gonna leave with a small piece of lyrical chorus from a song im working on currently..
its a compose creation of a friend..
im not sure if thats her life story in between those lines..
no questions asked..im just helping her out..
i hope she'll find what she's looking for..yup
here it goes..
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Tiba tiba ku rasa cinta
Bila dia meminta maaf ku untuknya
Namun bila ku melihatnya
Pelik aneh ku rasa yang tak pernah ku rasai

Namun dia berpunya, pada insan berpura
Tidak pernah ku suka cara cara nya
Ingin ku mengatakan apa yang ku rasakan,
keberatan

Ya tuhan ku gerakkan hati nya
Untuk mencintai aku hanya aku saja
Meskinya pun dia kan menolak
Namun sungguh aku takkan dapat melupakan dia