i happen to be browsing thru my earliest blog entries..
the ones that started of this revelation of im-not-okay...
back then..i realised i was more of an absurd person..
one who scrutinised every single soul at the most trivial of matters..
in fact..i seem happy doing so..
its like venting my anger to another unknowingly but in actual contrary im responsible for all my own wrong doings.
i have much to apologise about.
much to apprehend the sorryness to whom i've hurt.
it never really bore down to my mind about forgiving and forget.
even as i do happen to forgive someone..i'll be lying if i said i really was sincere.
and now..whats past is past..dwelling on it will just be as bad as reviving my unapprecitive history..
im older now..i had enough of grudges..
i need an apology...
not from someone...but to someone..
hope you'll hearing this..