an awkward time it is...

probably a little childish to abandon what i held on so dearly...

something delicate which i think im taking for granted..

and probably...

i'll get a bullshit and fuck you right at my face..

at the end of the day...

this ailing heart keeps crying you back..

and like i said..

your my ecstasy

hah.

no matter how tainted it can be..

its still addictive..

and before anything happens..

i would like to apologise for days yet to come..

cuz i wont be there for you for another week...

im going away from here...

i hope you'll forgive me..

but rest assured that its not goodbye..

not ever i wont...

so please...

i need you to bear with me..

i promise we'll row that boat together k..

and our life may not be a dream..

its a fantasy...

we'll make that happen...

i love you still...

i do...